I need to go out more

Specifically new spots and find myself comfortable enough to just breathe and be comfortable in public. I think it will help me overcome many things. Like for one I always feel like I am not physically safe and I think that fear would go away as I go out in places and feel more comfortable. Even just smoke a cig and then coming back would be beneficial.

I have no innocence left

Nobody will mate with someone who isn’t human and just acts like an actual animal... little remorse dark horse. I want to go to god and just get to judgement and forgiveness already... this lonesome thing is really tiring